Long distance relationships. I've had one, and one is far too many. If you've never had a long distance relationship, then this post will make absolutely no sense to you. But the truth is, most people have had a long distance relationship and enjoyed it... a lot. The reason I think they're so attractive is because you can build a person to be whatever you want, and they're still physically there. I mean it's not like you actually date. Or you talk all that much. You can imagine them however you want.

XOXO Jake.

So, I kinda want a boyfriend. But at the same time I don't. Like, I guess I just want someone to satisfy my physical needs. I'm not necessarily saying sex. But, like... feeling... I don't even know. Haha. Whatever. I need to stop writing now.

Love always,

XOXO Jake

So, as some of you may know, Stevie left the 5AwesomeGays. This is a little more depressing for me than I thought it would be. He's so funny, and he put so much time into his videos. I mean, he spent two years on that channel. I know it's cheesy for me to feel like this, but unless you make YouTube videos and you've talked to some of your viewers, then it's impossible to explain. I've thought about quitting YouTube a lot, but I know if I did a lot of people would be upset, and in all honesty it's helped me grow. It's taught me responsibility, and when the time comes, it'll teach me how to give up something I put a ton of time into. YouTube helps people connect with one another and share experiences. Sure, you could go to blogs, but it's not the same as seeing a face with expressions and a body that moves. It makes it more real and it makes it interesting. That's really what YouTube is for me. It's so much more than a website; it really makes people connect with one another. I've met some amazing people on YouTube (my first boyfriend for example.) I just can't imagine what my life would be like without it. Anyways... cheesy blog is over.

Love always.

XOXO Jake

I think a lot. Like, a lot a lot. And a lot of the times I have nowhere to put my thoughts. I don't expect many people to follow this, maybe nobody will. But I'm going to write on it. I like to look back and see the things I say, and diaries just don't work for me. Like Kathy Griffin says, "Secrets fester." And keeping a diary makes me feel like I'm keeping secrets about myself, which is something I've been happy to abolish from my life.

So, I hope you enjoy reading this, if you're reading this.

Love always.

XOXO Jake